i can't live without you .. :'/

hey guys , Jessie come back again .. but it so moody today ..and also happy abit because meet my dear friends at school .. they make me smile in front :')

Actually , morning before I'm going school .. had a massage from my husband . That massage I don't want write at here , and also make me so hurt too ..

Dear boy , I had many words wanna tell you ..but , I don't know how to tell you .. I just can write at here .. I hope you will realize how much I love you .. and hope it you won't giving up on me ..

Did you know ? you write that massage for me , how much I hurt ? yeah , I know I gonna scold you last night .. just because I can't 'TAHAN' that's feeling did you know ? No , you don't know .. you just care your feeling , you didn't caring my feeling anymore ... When you moody , you must tell me right ? but this time you didn't tell me .. I don't know what was happening for you ... and you also don't want tell me in fact .. okey , it's all I also didn't mind it ... During the month , we didn't texting , calling , meeting .. just because your words .. you say you wanna alone that's month .. oke , I waiting , I'm waiting until I can't stopping my tears .. how much hurt inside my heart , I think many people must say I'm stupid right ? but , I'm sorry , that's all just because I love him .. no more someone inside my heart ...

You know how I'm thinking you ? You are my special one ...you are the present get from God .. I'm so appreciate our relationship of us .. I won't forget all words you give me ... always put inside my heart . Did you remember what you promise ? you said : ' I won't leave you if you don't make problems . ' I remember what you said to me .. I didn't doing any wrong mistake for our relationship . But , you are making problems now .. I don't mind .. I didn't angry .. I just disappointed what you doing to me right now .. I'm not you thinking that Strong . how much I waiting you come back ... but , all exchange you 1 massage that's you said you can't watching me again ..you said , no more girlfriends ... you just want friends .. can I ask ? do you think first my feeling ? did you think before you said that words to me .. ? No , I can sure to tell you .. you just mind your feeling .. you think you so hurt .. you so sad .. you so stress .. then you told me all what you don't like it ... you said , if have girlfriends just will blow your mind ? Did you thinking how I hurt you say like that ? my heart was blooding .. was crying .. how much I hurt inside but I didn't tell you .. just because I love you ...

I'm always thinking back our memory of us .. I love your voice , I love your smile .. I love you everything ..I'm hopefully you come back beside me .. it so hope it .. but I afraid you will leave me ... I swear ... I can't live without you .. please , I don't mind how much you hurt me ... I just want you come back ... Even it no more chance already ... :')

Kisah Jessie sama mohd azmierul

hey guys , long time didn't updated my blog right ? h0h0 k , Jessie wanna writing about Him .. yeahh is him .. my husband .. modh azmierul .. my lao gong :D

Kita berkenalan dalam laman muka buku :D . Serupanya pun dari kawan nya c BISING -omeng- ..h0h0 , dia mintak number ku sama omeng , jadi kami bermulai sms .. then berkenalan diri .. h0h0 ...teruskan kedua hari , dia ajak simpan relationship ..jadi saya terima saja .. just like that easy . heeeee .. hbis mlm tu kita b'calling .. waa mulut'y punya sewwiit .. hihik ..

orang nya , english sangat hebat .. kami b'sms pun kebanyakan guna english ..lagi dia bagi aku sim celcom nya ... sebab aku guna digi dlu .. sekarang sim celcom ku .. dia punya :D check contact list nya .. number saya bernama 'OwDearQ' aduihaiii cair ~ hiiiiiiiiii :D

bgitu larh .. mcm biasa .. malam2 sms .. smpai jam 12 comform tdur ... husband ku anak baik .. tidur awal .. okeh ,, teruskan .... dia tu budak guitar ... aku sayang itu budak guitar ... cair tau apabila dia nyanyikan aku .. h0h0 ..xpa .. masih boleh tahan .. XD

masah b'calling mesti 1 jam ka sentengah jam .. smpai ku knak mrah ole sepupu ku .. ketawa sndri tu klau b'calling h0h0 , biasa larh kan .. couple ..okeh2 .. x tau hari apa sua .. kami b'jumpa d perdana ... 1st time meet .. heeeeee ,, punya la tinggi tu anak .. x tau makan apa toh .. h0h0 .... terus dia bwah motor tu jumpa aku sama c bising -omeng- .. HAHA .. taik nhe anak .. tipu ak ckp ndk pndai bwah motor -.- h0h0 ... tipu ag ckp c omeng yg bwah aduiii pndai2 dia .. nasib x mkan tangan ku h0h0 ..x sanggup larh .. XD b'jumpa pun malu2 saja ..yeiy ~ biasa larh PEMALU ... habis drg mau cepat jalan jadi drg balik dlu uma .. kmi pun blik uma ... pastu p uma nya .. c taman aman 3 ..duiii punya larh main penat crik uma anak toh ..h0h0 ... tpi akhir pun dapat jumpa larh ... smpai jam 6 baru dia hntar aku balik uma ku ..waaa rindu masa jalan bersama .. aduiiiii .. heeeeeeeeeeeeeee okeh2 .. bgitu larh ... yang lain2 toh .. secret la k ? hehehehe ..

ckup mrepek sua aku nhe hari .. h0h0 .. x lama month anniversary kami sua nhe .. harap2 kami bertahan lama .. and selama-lamanya .... okeh2 bgitu saja larh .. ceiwahh .. hbis larh .. heeee

Kbye

:D

I give up . :'(

hey guys , Jessie come back here. but just a while . when I finish my writing I will leave here at all .. I don't know what I can do now . this I just for my beloved boy .

.Putra Khairul Ikhwan Bin Mohd Yusuf .

wawan , I want to tell you all my heart words . did you know when I fall in love with you ? at the first time you call me .. you ask me , eat already ? or what2 .. all caring words ... I still remember until now . I do love you so much . but , you never know it . just because I too shy to tell you all about that . did you know ? I love you may have 5 month already .. first time I like someone long time .. you are the first one . mirul , he's my friends . just friends . but because him you angry me until unfriend me . I wonder , why you angry it ? then nicole told to me .. HE LIKE YOU A LONG TIME AGO . omg , I can't believe it you like me a long time . because you always ignore my chat . ignore me . that's make me feel you don't care me already . I wonder all .. but , now also no use already . I never disturb you life again ... I wish you with diba will forever .. I hope :')

lastly , you just hate me . don't love me . I don't need love again . I will change at all . Stop it to love me . and I apologize . just like that . I LOVE YOU :')

From : JeJe .

Kbye .
always Love you .

hey guys , Jessie was long time didn't updated her blog .. Today , Jessie was coming back here... hello all ..I was 3 more days didn't online ... and I was already deactivate my facebook account .. Today I'm online my blog I wan't talk about my feeling to her to him .

To him , I know .. you was have a new girlfriend . I don't know is who .. but maybe better than me .. I cry , I sad , just only a while .. but I hope you will happy with your new partner in your new life .. do you know ? your are a boy make me change all ... because of you .. I didn't care about boy feeling already .. and I always seeing your picture .. your massage .. and I always missing your smile ... never forget your smile .. I think you is already forget me ... but never mind .. I didn't angry you and I'm so happy because you already change your life . start at today .. I need to forget you anymore... when ever I'm really so missing you .. but I still wanna forget . Even you already taken by someone .. but you always in my heart , Never change . :')

To her , my beloved girlfriend . first time we was 3 days no skype-ing .. no crazy-ing .. and more we will do everyday ... I'm feel so sorry to you .. I know I'm so childish .. I know you love me and you wan't me to change my self ... yeah .. I'm try my best to change it already .. I'm feel so lost .. We didn't like before .. everyday I will waiting you wake up .. then me like a mom to call you eat .. call you go bath .. hahaha thinking back is a happy memory .. before , we always share what we everyday feeling ...you sad .. you mad .. you no mood .. you cry .. you crazy .. you smile .. I'm always beside you ... when I sad .. I mad .. I no mood .. I cry .. I crazy .. I smile .. your are always beside me .. you are a really good friend in my life ... But I don't know I'm in your life is a Shit guy ! But , nevermind .. this saturday you was going K.K already .. hope you will forget me this shit girl .. this always make you bad mood .. make you angry girl ... lastly , I will always remember you in my life .. Iloveyou ... :')

Start at today , 4 friendship will change to 3 friendship forever .. because I'm not a good friend in you'll life . K , remember I love you'll . Never Change ! :')

this for someone boy :)

hey boy , I had tell you all about this .. please you must read this .. this all I want you know it ..

do you love her ? your girlfriend .. your Wife..did you care her feeling it ? what you thinking about now ? I now you really have many problems ... but , just because that girl .. you want let her go ? did you really love her ... ?

today , she know about happen .. she didn't said anything .. just crying .. locked herself at room ..eat also abit...until now .. didn't said anything .. did you dont hurt it like that ? she's so hurt you know ? what i should to do with her ? I can't do anything ... I also don't know how to do it .. we all talk with her .. she also don't answer it .. !

Boy , I'm your sis I must tell you that all ... please care her feeling ? I know you gave scold for mom ... I know you also bad mood .. but , she is a girl .. how her feeling it ? I don't now , why you want act lovw with another girl .. I don't care what you doing now .. But , please .. I 'm merayu to you laa .. please find back her or said something to her ..

I don't want her like that ..Just only cry .. did you want her like that ? don't want right ? please .. please .. please....

:'(

我累了，真的累了。

今天我会用华语来写这篇文章。我不知道我最近怎么了...我好累你知道吗？以前，我还能确定我在你心里的感觉。可是现在，我一点也感觉不到。我在你心里的感觉。

以前，我们还是很甜对吧？每天早上你一定会等我上线。我也一定会为了你而早起。你说你不要我那么迟睡，我也渐渐在改变了。我也听你的话，不在顽皮，不再幼稚。为了你，我改变了不少。

可是，你知道你变了吗？不是我变，最近，你都一直骂我。你不理我。当我是透明的。当我是白痴。你以为我不知道。你错了，我只是不想跟你吵架，因为每次吵架，你都会让我哭。 :'(

你让我有种很不好的感觉你知道吗？ 很多次我都相信你。可是你一次一次的骗我。你觉得我很好骗吗？我知道你骗我。可是我也没说什么。

我真的受够了，你知道我有多辛苦吗？我不知道了要做什么来让你开心。我每次都很努力的想办法逗你开心。可是就是不成功。我觉得我很失败，我的哥哥们，我都会逗得他们很开心。可是唯有你，我什么都做不到。在怎么努力你都不会为了我笑一次。

我真的不知道了你心里在想什么，我觉得，我们的距离已经越来越远了....我很努力的挽回那段距离..可是却是那么的难！我真的累了，你知道吗？我每天都在为你掉泪，你知道吗？ 一切一切，你都不知道。我想了很久很久，我真的不知道我们还能不能走下去。我希望可以。 :')

我想你现在应该很开心的跟你那些朋友玩。我知道你忘记我了，但是我不怪你。我不会再说些什么，我也不会在做些什么，我只会静静的，默默地，想着你 . :')

To my Samantha :')

My dear Samsam , my beloved sis ft crazy friend , :')

I know all is already was happen . I know you next year you will going K.K for study . dear , Do you know ? I'm really hope you don't go there .. because I don't wanna you leave me ... I know you don't want too .. I know your situation .

do you love us ? do you remember our memory for us ? we singing together ? we skype-ing everyday ? do you remember when you feel sad , when you cry , who's beside you ? I don't want you leave me ..but , I know it was imposseble .. sorry that I'm so childish . But , I really dont want you leave me .. I'm crying now .... I can't holding the water ...... I know you know me , it I so love you friends ... Even you have fighting , but lastlast also be together back ... I don't want you leave me sam .... I don't wanna you forget all about lahad datu .. we all our memory .. we laugh .. we cry ... we mad ... all is together ..

Samsam , I really have many words wanna tell you in my heart .. but , I know if I said to you .. you much cry too .. I know .. because you are bestie . I know all about you .. lastly , we still will leave us ... nevermind , I know this not you want also right .. I will be strong here .. even you not at my beside ..I also will miss you .. I will miss you everyday .. I will contact you everday .. we still can Skype everyday right ? Now , we still have 1 month more .. at the last time ... We take many picture and go out everyday ... put in our happy memory .. Don't cry girl , Even you are far .. we'll still at you heart . in you heart . you still is my gurlprenn .. I'm still is your gurlprenn .. Iloveyou my friend Samantha Deleona Perete . :')

I'm always is you Jessiemangg

you also always is my Samanthangg

We are best friends Forever & ever

.Our Friendship Never End .