I give up . :'(

hey guys , Jessie come back here. but just a while . when I finish my writing I will leave here at all .. I don't know what I can do now . this I just for my beloved boy .

.Putra Khairul Ikhwan Bin Mohd Yusuf .

wawan , I want to tell you all my heart words . did you know when I fall in love with you ? at the first time you call me .. you ask me , eat already ? or what2 .. all caring words ... I still remember until now . I do love you so much . but , you never know it . just because I too shy to tell you all about that . did you know ? I love you may have 5 month already .. first time I like someone long time .. you are the first one . mirul , he's my friends . just friends . but because him you angry me until unfriend me . I wonder , why you angry it ? then nicole told to me .. HE LIKE YOU A LONG TIME AGO . omg , I can't believe it you like me a long time . because you always ignore my chat . ignore me . that's make me feel you don't care me already . I wonder all .. but , now also no use already . I never disturb you life again ... I wish you with diba will forever .. I hope :')

lastly , you just hate me . don't love me . I don't need love again . I will change at all . Stop it to love me . and I apologize . just like that . I LOVE YOU :')

From : JeJe .

Kbye .
always Love you .

hey guys , Jessie was long time didn't updated her blog .. Today , Jessie was coming back here... hello all ..I was 3 more days didn't online ... and I was already deactivate my facebook account .. Today I'm online my blog I wan't talk about my feeling to her to him .

To him , I know .. you was have a new girlfriend . I don't know is who .. but maybe better than me .. I cry , I sad , just only a while .. but I hope you will happy with your new partner in your new life .. do you know ? your are a boy make me change all ... because of you .. I didn't care about boy feeling already .. and I always seeing your picture .. your massage .. and I always missing your smile ... never forget your smile .. I think you is already forget me ... but never mind .. I didn't angry you and I'm so happy because you already change your life . start at today .. I need to forget you anymore... when ever I'm really so missing you .. but I still wanna forget . Even you already taken by someone .. but you always in my heart , Never change . :')

To her , my beloved girlfriend . first time we was 3 days no skype-ing .. no crazy-ing .. and more we will do everyday ... I'm feel so sorry to you .. I know I'm so childish .. I know you love me and you wan't me to change my self ... yeah .. I'm try my best to change it already .. I'm feel so lost .. We didn't like before .. everyday I will waiting you wake up .. then me like a mom to call you eat .. call you go bath .. hahaha thinking back is a happy memory .. before , we always share what we everyday feeling ...you sad .. you mad .. you no mood .. you cry .. you crazy .. you smile .. I'm always beside you ... when I sad .. I mad .. I no mood .. I cry .. I crazy .. I smile .. your are always beside me .. you are a really good friend in my life ... But I don't know I'm in your life is a Shit guy ! But , nevermind .. this saturday you was going K.K already .. hope you will forget me this shit girl .. this always make you bad mood .. make you angry girl ... lastly , I will always remember you in my life .. Iloveyou ... :')

Start at today , 4 friendship will change to 3 friendship forever .. because I'm not a good friend in you'll life . K , remember I love you'll . Never Change ! :')

this for someone boy :)

hey boy , I had tell you all about this .. please you must read this .. this all I want you know it ..

do you love her ? your girlfriend .. your Wife..did you care her feeling it ? what you thinking about now ? I now you really have many problems ... but , just because that girl .. you want let her go ? did you really love her ... ?

today , she know about happen .. she didn't said anything .. just crying .. locked herself at room ..eat also abit...until now .. didn't said anything .. did you dont hurt it like that ? she's so hurt you know ? what i should to do with her ? I can't do anything ... I also don't know how to do it .. we all talk with her .. she also don't answer it .. !

Boy , I'm your sis I must tell you that all ... please care her feeling ? I know you gave scold for mom ... I know you also bad mood .. but , she is a girl .. how her feeling it ? I don't now , why you want act lovw with another girl .. I don't care what you doing now .. But , please .. I 'm merayu to you laa .. please find back her or said something to her ..

I don't want her like that ..Just only cry .. did you want her like that ? don't want right ? please .. please .. please....

:'(

我累了，真的累了。

今天我会用华语来写这篇文章。我不知道我最近怎么了...我好累你知道吗？以前，我还能确定我在你心里的感觉。可是现在，我一点也感觉不到。我在你心里的感觉。

以前，我们还是很甜对吧？每天早上你一定会等我上线。我也一定会为了你而早起。你说你不要我那么迟睡，我也渐渐在改变了。我也听你的话，不在顽皮，不再幼稚。为了你，我改变了不少。

可是，你知道你变了吗？不是我变，最近，你都一直骂我。你不理我。当我是透明的。当我是白痴。你以为我不知道。你错了，我只是不想跟你吵架，因为每次吵架，你都会让我哭。 :'(

你让我有种很不好的感觉你知道吗？ 很多次我都相信你。可是你一次一次的骗我。你觉得我很好骗吗？我知道你骗我。可是我也没说什么。

我真的受够了，你知道我有多辛苦吗？我不知道了要做什么来让你开心。我每次都很努力的想办法逗你开心。可是就是不成功。我觉得我很失败，我的哥哥们，我都会逗得他们很开心。可是唯有你，我什么都做不到。在怎么努力你都不会为了我笑一次。

我真的不知道了你心里在想什么，我觉得，我们的距离已经越来越远了....我很努力的挽回那段距离..可是却是那么的难！我真的累了，你知道吗？我每天都在为你掉泪，你知道吗？ 一切一切，你都不知道。我想了很久很久，我真的不知道我们还能不能走下去。我希望可以。 :')

我想你现在应该很开心的跟你那些朋友玩。我知道你忘记我了，但是我不怪你。我不会再说些什么，我也不会在做些什么，我只会静静的，默默地，想着你 . :')

To my Samantha :')

My dear Samsam , my beloved sis ft crazy friend , :')

I know all is already was happen . I know you next year you will going K.K for study . dear , Do you know ? I'm really hope you don't go there .. because I don't wanna you leave me ... I know you don't want too .. I know your situation .

do you love us ? do you remember our memory for us ? we singing together ? we skype-ing everyday ? do you remember when you feel sad , when you cry , who's beside you ? I don't want you leave me ..but , I know it was imposseble .. sorry that I'm so childish . But , I really dont want you leave me .. I'm crying now .... I can't holding the water ...... I know you know me , it I so love you friends ... Even you have fighting , but lastlast also be together back ... I don't want you leave me sam .... I don't wanna you forget all about lahad datu .. we all our memory .. we laugh .. we cry ... we mad ... all is together ..

Samsam , I really have many words wanna tell you in my heart .. but , I know if I said to you .. you much cry too .. I know .. because you are bestie . I know all about you .. lastly , we still will leave us ... nevermind , I know this not you want also right .. I will be strong here .. even you not at my beside ..I also will miss you .. I will miss you everyday .. I will contact you everday .. we still can Skype everyday right ? Now , we still have 1 month more .. at the last time ... We take many picture and go out everyday ... put in our happy memory .. Don't cry girl , Even you are far .. we'll still at you heart . in you heart . you still is my gurlprenn .. I'm still is your gurlprenn .. Iloveyou my friend Samantha Deleona Perete . :')

I'm always is you Jessiemangg

you also always is my Samanthangg

We are best friends Forever & ever

.Our Friendship Never End .

Do you know ? imissyou :'(

heyheyhey ,

hello my all reader ..

do you all having miss me ?

you all know ? I damn miss you all . :')

actually , I'm really missing someone .. that's someone is my beloved boyfriend . I'm many question wanna asking you . I'm many words wanna talking with you .. many many all I'm thinking you . I really2 miss you so much . damn much !

how are you ? can sleep when I didn't at your beside ?

how about you everyday ?

having fun at you life now ?

do you gonna miss me ?

:'(

Do you know ? everyday I'm like at heaven .. I'm crying every night .. I'm thinking you every night .. I'm miss your eyes , your smile ..

I'm thinking all about you everyday ..

you want me learning about 'besabar'

yes , I really2 have learning everyday .

But , you know ? it so hard .

Even it so hard , I'm also trying to learning what you want me to do .

everyday , I can't sleep because thinking you ..

I it so really hope you can in my dream .

but , I just can talking to my self is a joke .

I'm know I'm so stupid ..

but , even I'm stupid but I love you :')

actually , I'm sick already ..

but I'm still thinking you ..

no one can know my feeling now .. I really2 so love you ! I really2 so miss you .. I can't stoping thinking you ! I can't :'(

you wanna me learning ' besabar'

can I asking you ? do you can do it ?

I can tell you , I can't do it .

bila awak boleh terima kesalahan saya ? awak ada rindu saya tak ? awak tahu tak ? hari2 kehidupan saya mcm taik . tiada org buat lawak bkin saya ketawa .. tiada org kata2 manis sama saya .. hari2 kerja saya hnya dergar lagu .. hari2 tidur ... hari2 nangis .. sebab janji awak .. takkan ganggu awak 1 minggu ... saya rindu masa awak kata saya manja2 .. saya rindu awak bila awak kata awak sayang saya ... rindu awak bila awak kata awak risau saya .. awak tahu tak ? saya rindu awak sangat2 .. jangan anggap saya tipu awak .. sekali saya jumpa org pkai motor .. sekali saya ingat bila awak main motor .. saya rindu senyuman awak .. saya rindu awak sangat2 .. awak tau tak ?

awak tidak tahu .. bila sam bgitau saya status awak semua ... awak tau tak ? sangat sakit hati .. mcm kenak tikam .. kalau boleh .. mahu betul saya mati sekarang .. saya tak tahan sudah .. saya tidak kuat .. saya sangat lemah ..

tuhan ku ... boleh saya mati awal ?

saya rasa kehidupan saya skrng mcm taik .

walaupun , saya sayang dia sangat ..

tpi klau tidak dia sayang sudah . tidak boleh terpaksa juga ..

dia benci saya ... dia benci saya sangat2 ..

sorry , saya ganggu hidup mu ..

our friendship for us :)

Snap by Jessie

edited by Jessie

model by Samantha

Hey guys , do you all gonna miss me ? hehe .. seriously I miss you all damn much..buthappen somerhing problems I deactivate my facebook account . anyway , Jessie still here .. :D

Today i'm going out with my girlprenn Samantha , she's my bestie . I'm damn so like her .. She's awesome . yesterday , we have a big happen , my boyfriend with her boyfriend fighting all because the hacker ! shit ! okey I don't want think back what happen yesterday . last night , we also crying , I cry because my boyfriend wanna stop contact with me 1 week .she cry because her boyfriend wanna break up her . But lastly , she's be back with her boyfriend . but me ? he say wanna me learning 'besabar' . omg , I'm just can 'TAHAN' . I can't do anything , because I love him . anyway , I don't want say anything think about him again . stop sad k ? yeah , I love you Jiejieng :') .

continue my story for today , hehe . today my gurlprenn Samantha come my home first then we walking back her home .. before back home .. we go taman muhibbah 2 . HAHA , We go there sit2 and talking all about 'genk silabukan' many memory we remember back .. suddenly had 1 cat come here company us . haha , that cat so cute . and then , we take pic with that cat and playing with it . hehehe .. damn like that cat . :D

Today do 1 day photographer :D

my cutie model ' Samantha'

&

a littie cutie model ' CAT' :D

See ? nice right ? haha .. yeah I damn like it . :D and thanks you my little cutie cat ..free model hahahaaha :DD because ' It ' I happy again hehehee ... :DD

after snap-ing , we back sam2 home eat mango HAHA ... play guitar a while .. then back my home back .. after back my home . cooking2 maggie carry .. hahaha ... yummy yummy ^_^ . after fnish eat-ing , we sit at outside and talking2 again .. we talking 2 hour . w0w HAHA .. talking all about them also . beloved genk silabukan .. hehe

seriously , I miss him so much . specially his smile :') . I love his smile make me feel so happiness . I love you jiejieng and I miss you too :') Even you make me hurt so much now , I know your mood still angry . I know , so I deactivate my facebook 1 week . anyway I nothing to do . just wanna you happy . hope you enjoy at your holiday :')

Jessiemangg

love

Jiejiengg

:')

tahniah la hacker F**K

kepada Hacker toh ... ya ku tau kau ndk puas ati sama kmi . yeah hbat kau, dapat kc rosak hubungan org lain .. 2 pasangan kau kc rosak ! duii punya lah hebat !! idol bha sma lu .. bkin tekanan bha .. aku senyum bgus2 sama lu bha . ku x tau la knpa mau p kcau boy ku ! tpi lu jga2 lah ! dosa mu mkin trok nhe ! kau bwat apa ! TUHAN sak yg tau !

So , tahniah sama kau ya .. kmi deactivate facebook . kalah kmi bha .. hebat bha kau hacker .. !!! kepada kwan2 kmi .. sorry lah klau sblum kc tau kmi deactivate facebook sorry sgt2 .. anyway , klau mau contact ma kmi d shoutmix dan twitter . :)

ku x mau mrepek bayak2 lah ... malas uda kmi bgitu ... gra2 hacker nhe .. bkin kmi tekanan .. ag pun bwat bui kmi mau gaduh ! aish .. kmi peduli drg lah . biar drg urus sndri ... kmi diam2 sak lah ... i dono what i can do know . no , we can't do anything now . so just waitting them . if have something happen wanna find us , just contact me or her .. love you all .. :*

Jessiemangg

samanthangg

we <3 you all :*

Kbye
-ANTIFACEBOOK-

Sorry That I Loved You ..

Hey guys , Jessie come back here .. sorry long time didn't updated my blog .. hehe .. in the mood , I'm feel afraid and worry . worry that my bro Awang Juan , because his had a resident at yesterday afternoon . He's hand can't play guitar already .. I want bring he go see the chinese doctor soon . hope him will be okey soon . :') abang awang juan cepat sembuh arh :'D ..

Actually , Today I'm too bad mood .. because 'Him' . He's my best boyfriends before .. He like my brother so take care me .. at the first time he callin' me .. he's sound so man .. at the moment I'm fall in love you him ... I'm love him is too long time already .. I'm so happy have the time playing to him .. laughing , joking , anything , any moment with him is so feel happiness .. but , he don't know I'm loving him .. yes , that time I had boyfriend . that why I don't want tell you I love you ..

Do you know ? when I was feel sad first person I'm thinking is You .

Do you know ? when I was feel happy first person I'm thinking is You .

Do you know ? when I was cry first person I'm thinking is You .

Do you know ? when my phone was ringing , anytime I'm hoping is You .

Do you know ? when I saw you with your girlfriend is so sweet , I'm feel jealous !

Do you know ? every day I'm waiting you said to me that 3 words .

I'm sorry today I'm saying something too bad for you .. that time I'm really so BAD MOOD . I know , You hate me . :'( Sorry that I hurted you . I know I'm too late apologize . Even you hate me .. You still at my heart . I nothing to said . Just only some words I want told to you ..

Sorry That I Loved You .. :')

Stop here ,

ILoveYouBadly.

JejeLovEwAwaN.

lying music Kbye :')

-ANTIFACEBOOK-

对不起，我不是故意的。

对不起，我爱你。

Ignore Love :)

Today Jessie had changed all herself . I want thank you for my honey samantha , Because she was scold him , and She is know all about my hardness . thanks alot of you .. I love you samantha :)

I'm was just only a simple girl . before I'm so bad with my family , Sorry grandmom .. I is make you always angry . Sorry :) I know why you don't want me in love now .. yes I was so young . I know I'm not ready to love . Sorry grandmom I love you .. :')

My dear , I'm was say sorry to you . I know just now you say all the thing just because you are angry . Yes I know you so love me , I know you just a kidding .. But , I'm so sorry it I can't think it is kidding . I'm serious . I wanna say thank for you is because me you changed alot . But , Sorry I'm not a perfect girlfriend for you . Yes I know you love me so much . thanks you for love me , I'm always put you in my heart . Today I was thinking it many .. Before I was in love many time . But also is a fail love . I know many time I'm not a good girlfriends . That's why I now wanna close my heart .

My dear Ex , I don't know what kind you want do like that to me . maybe I'm do many thing make you angry . So that I want say sorry with you . dear Ex , That day sorry I'm say many bad thing of you .. I'm too bad right ? Yes , I know I'm worng . But you didn't say anything .

I didn't want you forgive me . I don't care what you thinking me about . You want hate me , you just hate me . You want block me , you just do it . because I'm didn't have a feeling HATE . My heart is already no Feel Love . last words . Take care , I wish you be happy in your life :')

Lastly , I no need love now , because I was so young . I don't know what will happen in the future , But I need to do is Study for my life . You all must think me a kidding , but I'm seriously to told you all . I'm ignore Love in my life now . no one can in it before I open my heart . Sorry to all my lover . Specially my love bie , sorry i make you so hurt . I also know you love me damn much . But sorry I can't continue the relationship to u .. I'm so sorry about that . I hope you seeing my this post was smile . don't sad . be strong .Take care :')

I always is your Wife .

Mrs. Masri

Stop here :')

Hari nhe ku bahagia :D

uiii uiii Hello blogger2 smua haaaaiii :D Jessie Datang Lagi laaaaaa ... awak smua da rindu Jessie khe ? HAHA mesti ada bha kan ? uiii mitak puji sgt jessie nhe HAHA .. okey2 ... Jessie mulai merepek suda haaa .... :DD

hari nhe ... Jessie jalan sama my bestie sis , samantha , lyssa , xiao lu and abang ku Awang juan ..dan kwan2nya c amin , awang , nazrin dan bdak korea HAHA .. dengan Syg ku masri ... Tpii sangat besar gangguan d situ ... bkin tekanan trus aku nhe .. mula2 c anjing toh kc balik cincin ku toh .. tpi ku kc BUANG CINCIN toh d LUAR JALANRAYA ! nah Hak ! btul2 ku buang .. skrng mungkin mc d situ hihik .. btw , aku memeng x suka tgok mukanya toh ! trep2 gaya samsing ag .. adoiinha ! handalan btul la dex ! skit2 nhe air botol ku dekat muka mu oke ! dalam bobo tea .. hnya suara ku dengan samantha yg paling bising ! bab bermaki2 HAHA .. diam2 smua lelaki gra2 aku .. abg ku nmpak ku bgitu pun diam2 dan 1st time jua dia nmpak ku bgitu .. dan syg ku pun diam2 .. doiiiii ! haha .. bha mmg JESSIE whaa nhe .. sapa x knal ? yg plg hebat bermaki2 org d dlm dunia nhe ? haha .. sorry boss x knal x pa .. x mau famous sgt2 jua ya x minat2 :DD

hbis kita smua d bobotea 4 jam .. bow punya la lama .. hehe ... yg hari nhe .. jessie lepaskan

tekanan jdi senyum2 .. duiii kuatnya ketawa ku d dlmbobotea ! smpai nyanyi2 lagu sama juan .. bermaki2 sama samantha ku .. bergilak2 sama Awang dan amin .. hihik ... pastu bergmbar2 sama xiiao lu hati ku ... c lyssa plk syg ku nhe da masalah skit ... dia brgduh sama bui nya .. anduk2 huhu .. cian2 syg ku alulululu jgn ngiis :* heheehe .. hari nhe serupanya ku TIDAK HAPPY :'( sebab jumpa musuh ku .. dan ku sgt x suka tgok muka hanjink toh .. biarpun dia dlu syg ku tpi skrng langsung teda perasaan ku sama dia ! ag pun aku x suka bui ku MEROKOK tpi dia bgi ! aish ! knpa la ! tau ka lama suda dia x merokok .. ku happy sgt bab dia brubah .. tpi hari nhe ku sgt kcwa! dia merokok d dpan ku lagi ! sial kau setan jauh dri bui ku ! ku x mau kau kcau dia ! DENGAR TIDAK ? ! HANJINK :P lagi pun ku x suka kau ikut2 gaya nya ! tu perkataannya ku tidak suka ! bha tpi akhirnya .. syg ku bgi saya sgt besar pyah Surprise dgn saya .. itu lah dia bagi saya ring .. omg , akhirnya saya ketawa sudah juga .. hehe thankyou my babyboy :DD

trusnya , Jessie lyan dorang c amin dengan awang .. hahaha cian c awang kna olok oleh aku .. aku pggil dia WANGI hihik .. bab da wangi ikan masin ..hahah dia ckp kewangian .. trus aku ktawa gilak .. bab dia ckp ikan masin WANGI hahaha .. trus c amin pun ketawa jua .. hahah hbis ku kali2 olok dia ,,, sorry awang hihik :D pastu da cweknya kol dia .. ku ckp 'hello syg' HAHA .. trus dia diam2 HAHA .. hbis dia malu2 suda sama aku .. haha bha wang x pyh malu2 sama aku nhe bdk nakal HAHA .. okey2 .. hbis gitu ... kami blik jam 2 .. kmi balik sama2 naik bus .... yg kami naik bus toh .. bdk kecik toh .. aduiiiii COMIL gilak eeeehh !! ahaha .. ku pggl dia comil syg ku hihik .. comilnya dia pggl blik aku syg jua haha bermuah2 kmi sblum trun bus haha .. aku cubit pipihnya dia pun cubit blik pipih ku haha .. pastu ku tnya boleh blik uma mu dia ckp boleh bha syg .. aduiiii punya la comil toh bdk ! hehee .. hbis drg c amin awang dan awang juan .. mrah2 c bdk syg toh ... hah drg ckp kcik2 bwah cwek blik uma ahhh hbis la HAHA .. bha ketawaaa gilak kmi d bus tyme toh .. mcm bus toh kmi punya HAHA ..

kmi sam2 , lyssa dan lulu trun d pertama satu ..pastu drg ikut aku blik uma aku ... hbis c sam2 nhe nakal2 d dpan anjink ku c billy trus marah c bily .. lari c sam2 haha .. pastu jam 3 p uma sam2 tgok wayang 'paranormal activity' .. dui punya la seram kmi tgok .. bwat gelap2 ... suda la hujan2 .. gelap2 ag depannya ya ! best tgok .. c lulu toh tkut jdi x dia tgok .. tpi bising dia d sbelah gra2 namauk dgr suara2 wayang toh .. hbis panjat pantad2 kmi .. eee gilak >< HAHA ... pastu jam 5 ku blik uma ku .. dan drg sam2 blik uma sam2 ... mcm org gilak kmi hari nhe .. hhehehe sok2 p funfair HAHA :DD

this is the gitf him get me .. :D

nhe dua bdk CINA kunun2 .. hihik

c wangi dan c Amin :D

snap by Jessie nhe :D

Jealous :)

heyhey my friends .. apa khabar ? lama uda saya x updated blog ku .. hehe .. hari nhe da kuat semangat saya mau tlis blog .. hehe :DD

hari nhe ku mau cerita tentang 'jealous' .. jealous sapa pun pndai ... dalam couple semestinya ada jealous juga kan ? hehe .. tahu kenpa ? meh jessie ceritakan ma awak smua ya.. hehe buka terlinga besar2 spuya awak fhm apa jessie merepek ari nhe :D

Jealous . perkataan nhe .. ku rasa smua pun mesti tahu .. dan smua mesti pernah rasa ... dan dalam couple .. semestinnya ada perkataan nhe terkeluar... HAHA . okey , Jessie mau ckp satu cerita sama awak smua... dgr ya ..

nhe cerita mulai kedua2 anak comil dgn anak hensem ... perempuan nhe sangat comil tpi tidak pernah bercinta sama org lain ... yg lelaki nhe pulak sangat hensem .. nhe dua2 anak di skolah banyak berminat ... tpi sama juga tidak pernah bercinta sama sesiapa .... dengan dorang nhe sama skolah tpi tidak pernah bertegur .. sama umur juga dan sama skolah ..

pada satu hari , nhe lelaki tengah bermain basketball dengan kawan2 nya . perempuan plak tertiba pengsan di depan dorang .. jdi lelaki nhe angkat perempuan nhe pergi depan rehat dan kwan2 nya p panggil cikgu ... dalam masa tunggu cikgu .. lelaki nhe ... tengok muka perempuan nhe , terasa perempuan nhe sgt cantik dgn lawa... knpa plak tidak pernah bertegur.. haha trus ketawa sndri ... bbrapa minit berlaku .. cikgu suda datang dan hantar perempuan nhe p hospital...

slepas hari , perempuan nhe datang kelas lelaki nhe mencari lelaki nhe untuk trima kan lelaki nhe bantu dia.. dan ajk p makan malam ...lelaki nhe terasa gembira sgt , perempuan nhe pun senyum2 sama dia hehe... okey smpai mlm nhe , dorang sedang mendating di restorant ...... mlm nhe dorang ada ketawa .. berbual2 dan makan2 .. hehe slepas hbis makan... lelaki nhe mau hntar prempuan nhe balik uma... tpi teda kereta nya .. lelaki nhe rasa malu tpi perempuan nhe kata tidak apa .. kita jalan sama2 balik rumah .. ^^ trus lelaki nhe pun temankan perempuan nhe balik uma .. dalam masa dorang berjalan sama2... lelaki nhe srupanya jatuh cinta sama perempuan nhe... tpi dia tidak tahu mcm mna mahu keluarkan perasaannya sama perempuan nhe.. masa lelaki keras kepala .. perempuan nhe sedang memandang lelaki nhe .. serupanya dari dlu sudah perempuan nhe jatuh cinta sama lelaki nhe .. cuma tidak berani bertegur sama lelaki nhe..dorang nhe , diam2 sak berjalan ..bbrapa minit... perempuan nhe mulai bercakap .. dia kata :' ada suatu ku mahu awak tahu.' lelaki nhe bls kata:' hmmmm .. apa awak nak kc tau saya ?' perempuan nhe plak ckp .. 'saya suka awak sudah 1 tahun.. cuma saya tidak brani ckp dgn awak . tkut klau awak tau pastu tidak lyan saya..' lelaki nhe dgr perempuan bgitu ckp .. trus rasa gembira dan heran...lelaki nhe ckp .. ' saya pun suka awak . cuma tidak tau mcm mna keluarkan perasaan saya , sekarang awak bgitau saya awak suka saya .. saya rasa sgt gmbira.. boleh saya jadi teman hidup mu ?' perempuan nhe heran tmbah gmbira dan kata 'Eya !' hbis drg bermalu2.. pastu lelaki nhe pegang tangan perempuan dan sama2 jalan blik uma...

nhe bermulaannya , sweet kan ? memang klau mula2 smua couple bgitu.. dorang couple sudah setengah tahun.. dalam setengah tahun nhe dorang tidak pernah bergaduh .. tetap sweet2 .. so byk org pun sgt iri hati sama dorang .. selepas bbrapa bulan .. perempuan nhe pergi sport check facebook lelaki.. nhe gaya memang smua perempuan pernha bwat kan ? hehe truskan , jdi perempuan nhe bwat mcm besa... p tgok inbox2 lelaki toh.. terdapat seorang perempuan selalu mencari lelaki nhe .. lelaki pun lyan perempuan nhe .. nhaa mulai sudah perkataan 'Jealous' .. trus perempuan nhe tgok2 chatting drg... punya la sakit hati , dalam chatting drg.. bolehnya kata yg perempuan toh sedang menguratkan lelaki toh.. tpi lelaki toh tidakk perasan perempuan toh suka dia .. jdi dia bwat mcm besa sak..lelaki memang bgitu -.- , okey truskan.. jdi dalam hati girlfriend lelaki nhe ..rasa sangat sedih dan jealous ! setrusnya .. perempuan nhe sms lelaki nhe ckp , 'awak ada rapat sama perempuan lain selain aku ?' lelaki nhe dpt msg dan heran bls , ' hmmm , teda la syg ku .. hati ku hnya ada awak :)' nhe la jenis2 lelaki tidak jujur sama girlfriend nya .. perempuan nmpak tmbah sakit hati dan geram sangat ! perempuan bls , ' btul ? awak boleh jujur sama saya . klau awak rpt sama permpuan lain .' lelaki makin rasa ada apa2 sudah nhe.. dan lelaki maci tidak jujur sama perempuan nhe ... hbis perempuan nhe tahan sak , sebab dia percaya lelakinya .. hbis bbrapa hari , mkin rpt drg.. dan lelaki nhe mcm kurang lyan perempuannya .. perempuannya heran .. dan rasa sakit hati .. lelakinya tidak sebrapa lyan dia sudah .. tidak mcm dlu .. perempuan nhe sms lelakinya kata , ' awak mc sayang aku kha ?' sebrapa minit bru lelaki bls ..'hmmmmm , eya syg ku knpa ?' perempuanya kata , 'awak tau tak saya rasa awak makin tidak lyan saya ! dan lyan perempuan lain ! awak tau kah? saya sangat sakit hati ! :'( ' .. lelaki dpt msg nhe sangat geram dan bls , ' kau slalu check aku ? knpa awak tau saya rpt sama perempuan lain ? bgitu kah cpl x percaya diri ku ? bgus kita break lah ! ' kedapat msg nhe perempuan sangat sakit hati dan sedang mengangis sebab lelakinya sudah berubah ..dan perempuan nhe tidak balas msg lelaki .. lelaki nhe pun tidak balas msg perempuan nhe .. so , trusnya perempuan tidak pernah pergi skolah sudah .. lelaki nhe pun tidak rasa apa2.. tpi terasa tidak besa sbab x sudah pernah jumpa dia.. dia p tnya kwan perempuan toh.. katanya perempuan nhe sudah pintah skolah.. bab mamy nya blik KL .. jdi dia pun mau pintah blik sna.. hbis ckp kwannya .. lelaki trus mengangis .. sebab terasa menyesal lepaskan perempuan toh.. skrng tidak akan jumpa dia blik....

mcm keluar topic ku plak ? sorry2 la yah ku nhe smbil pkir smbil tulis nhe.. x tau mrepek smpai mna suda nhe... akhir2nya , lelaki toh x juga couple dengan perempuan yg suka lelaki toh.. sebab hatinya tetap ada perempuannya .. sepanjang tahun nhe .. lelaki selalu mencarikan perempuan nhe dan bersms perempuan nhe .. tpi tidak juga d bls apa2...lelaki nhe rasa sangat menyesal ... dan dia tidak pernah sudah trima sesiapa perempuan yg minat dia ... okey .. memang ku kluar topic sudah nhe .. cita nhe nmpak gantung2 kan ? HAHA ..

biar ddia gantung .. asal awak tahu maksudnya :DD

Jessie mahu smua ya slalu bergaduh manja2 nhe ..saya mmg setujuh kmu gaduh manja2 ..klau ada gaduh maknanya mc ada sayang.. klau ada jealous maknanya mc ada sayang ...

Jessie pun ada masalah bgitu sama 'DIA' tpi slalunya selesai juga .. sebab kami tahu .. kami mac sayang jua .. hehe ... yg kdpatan tahu nhe kazen ku syg .. ku x mau kmu gaduh2 sudah.. ku mahu kmu mcm dlu .. manja2 gaduh2 .. biarpun dia bgitu lyan perempuan .. tpi dalam hatinya mc juga ada kmu.. hehe igat ya .. smua kwan2 kesygan ku .. Jessie sudah tahu apa rasanya .. dan jessie harap2 smua jgn mcm jessie dlu .. dan jaga baik2 bf/gf sndri.. walaupun itu kesannya tpi klau awak syg dia .. syg la sama2 kesannya .. sebab smua org pun x perfect.. jgn smpai resa menyesal bru sakit hati... :)

Haha .. jessie nhe hari bnyak mrepek kan ? sudah la bad mood satu pagi .. tpi da semangat mau kaci tau kamu smua tentang crta nhe HAHA ... terkeluar btul2 topic ku nhe HAHA .. btw , Iloveyou bha sama kamu smua .. haha :D terutama saya ku samsam .. sorry ku curik lagu mu ya .. hihik .. bab ku pun suka lgu nhe sgt2 ... dan maksudnya ku suka sgt2 :DD

klah .. byk merepek sudah ari nhe .. bubye smua reader .. :D muahmuah :*

unknow

Today , I'm really can't do anything . smile , laugh .. why it look so easy , but in my heart is so HARD . :'(

Today , I'm skype-ing with my honey Samantha :') thanks you dear so much ! because company just now and NOW . She also in sad now . Same us too .. because all about THEM :'(

my honey , don't sad . I don't know why he write like that . and I also didn't gonna say anything to you . I'm same mood with you .. heys ! we going cry same too want ?! I think you sure want :') !

Boy , I don't know what happen to you today , and I also know you are angrying me . because I can't make it promise to you . yes ! I'm really can't make it promise to who's else . because I don't trust PORMISE .

I'm so sorry about that I can't do it what you want . but I'm love you ever , please don't give up me .. because I won't give up you . I hope it you wont . first time we didn't contact anything today .. I think maybe you is so happy to play with your friends :') anyway you happy I happy .

My dear honey , I wanna talk with you .. thanks you bestie , I love you .. I know what you feeling now , but I can tell you is 'TRUST HIM' .. even you know is lie . that because you love him .. and I know you are love him damn much . Me too :') SO , Don't sad my girl .. if wanna sad . same2 cry ! same2 sad ! because we are sistar ! yes , I'm in cry now , but hope you don't too .. and I love you . I care you .. don't sad .. :')

I'm not a perfect girlfriend :'(

Dear , I'm so sorry about I can't go to meet you today .. I know why you want i go there .. but i don't want to meet him again ! and , I also can't go there .. :'(

Dear , Sorry . I'm not a perfect girlfriend . because I can't do it what you want me to do . I know what you feeling . I know ! but I'm sorry , SORRY . I really not a perfect girlfriend . but I love you :'(

I can't promise you anything . Because I don't trust Promise . and I can't promise you because I can't do it ! but I love you :'(

Today , I'm going my friends house just now , even I feel a bad mood but I still smile with them , because I don't want them worry me . But just now .. I can't say I really drink so many .. now my body still got bauk beer .. >< huhu

sangat2 rasa pening skrng . yeah , memang aku suda mabuk . biar pening tpi maci boleh type blog . huhu . ku rasa btul2 saya bukan girlfriend yang perfect untuk kamu . saya tahu kamu sangat kecewa . saya tahu pun awak merajuk . tpi boleh saya kata sama awak . saya tidak pndai pujuk lelaki :'( dan saya boleh kata sama awak . saya tidak akan terima dia balik . ya saya syg dia sgt2 ! tpi tuh dulu . dan juga saya tidak mahu dgr apa2 kisahnya . dan tidak mahu dgr namanya lagi . saya mintak maaf sangat2 kepada awak . saya tidak mahu cari gaduh sama awak . saya tidak suka bergaduh2 . saya tahu byk masalah kita . tpi saya tetap syg awak . awak tau ka ? saya tidak pernah betul2 ketawa dalam hati . saya tidak pernah rasa seronok dlm hati . tpi saya dpt awak . saya btul senyum dlm hati . sebab awak slalu paam hati saya . tahu saya ada masalah . tpi gra2 tidak boleh jumpa . ku pun kecewa juga . saya bad mood satu hari ! smpai skrng ! saya minum byk2 ! say mabuk ! tpi maci ag saya pkir tentang awak ! saya tau saya tidak perfect untuk awak . sorry sangat2 .. kalau awak tidak tahan sikap saya . boleh awak lepaskan saya . saya tidak paksa awak mesti terima kesan saya smua . tpi saya trima smua kesan2 awak . bab saya syg awak . biarpun awak tidak boleh tahan lagi . tpi saya tetap syg awak .

nhe bukti saya mabuk ! :'( saya btul2 udah tekanan sgt . haish ! bodh kan saya ? :'(


nhe antara satu saya minum ..

kedua ku minum .. tpi x mabuk .. lepas2 ku minum greds . hbis perut ku byk air . tpi maci x bole hilang stress :'(

Rasa Sangat Kecewa .. :'(

hello2 smua .. Hari nhe hari deepavali . selamat deepavali .. :) jessie hari nhe rasa sgt kecawa kpd dua org saya yg sgt syg :'(

first org ialah c 'Tinggi' dia yg lelaki saya sgt syg dlu .. dlu saya igat sya akan selamanya sama dia .. tpi kebyk masa berlalu .. dia uda berubah .. dia suka bermain sama pempuan lain . saya tahan , dia tidak layan saya bbrapa mlm smpai kata break . saya tahan , sekali2 dia kata break saya trima . skali2 dia kata sorry saya trima . smua bab saya syg dia :'( tpi , apa saya dpt ? balasan ku ialah dia curang . dia kc tinggalkan saya sndri . itu patut saya dpt oleh dia ? saya x tau patut ka tidak . saya pernah jumpa tuh pempuan . okey sgt santik . santik dri saya .. hari nhe , kedapatan dia kc bruk saya seorg suka tinggalkan dia dlu .. ckp saya yg slalu kc sakit ati nya . ckp saya org yg jahat . :'( semua yg knal saya tu pun tau . sapa slalu kc sakit ati sapa dluan ? bole tnya kwan ku c samantha dgn elyssa . drg dua2 pun besties ku . selama2 say cpl dgn c tinggi . kisah smua drg tau . saya pun teda mau cerita balik pasal dia . stop here :'(

Kedua org ialah c 'sepet' dia yg lelaki saya syg skrng . dia slalu x percaya saya . dia guna hp lain test saya . smpai dia pkir saya pgi mrah exnya . saya ckp teda saya kcau exnya .. tidak percaya . tidak puas ati . saya bgi fb ku bru dia puas ati . percaya saya . ! kenapa saya sgt tidak boleh d percaya kha ? ada ku selalu menipukan hati org ? selalu main kan hati org ? kenapa muka ku mcm penipu kha ? saya langsung tidak paham . kalau syg seorg . mesti percaya diri nya kan ? saya percaya apa kau kata . saya igat kata2 kamu . saya teda bwat benda2 yg awak x suka . smpai skrng saya tidak pernah lyan sesiapa lelaki yg mau perkenalan dgn saya . tpi awak x percaya . kenapa ? saya tidak patut d percayai ? haha mungkin muka saya mcm penipu . :'(

kamu pernah hargai diri ku ? kamu pndai sajak kata saya tidak selalu kc tinggalkan kamu . selalu mrajuk . ada btul satu kali saya btul2 mrajuk d dpan kamu x ? ada kha ? pkir dlu . kamu pkir btul2 . pernah kamu mintak apa2 yg saya tidak bagi ? pernah saya mrajuk kamu smpai kata break ? sekali2 .. sapa yg kata break dluan . sapa yg kc sakit sapa dluan . kamu pernah pkir apa aku pkir skrng ? kamu pernah x ? kamu pernah jaga hati saya ? pernah pkir masalah ku ? DEMI ? skali2 saya percaya skali2 saya sakit ati . tpi say ttp percaya . knpa ? bab saya syg kamu . tidak pernah saya mintak apa2 dri kamu . kamu bole ada satu kali btul2 pkir apa yg saya mahu ? boleh kah kamu percaya dri ku ? boleh kha kamu hargai diri ku ? saya tidak paksa .. saya sgt penat kamu tau ? skrng saya jalan pun susah . kaki tulang ku terbuka . tpi terpaksa mau pergi skola bab mau EXCEL . tpi kamu pkir saya penipu . kamu pkir saya tidak mau jumpa kamu . saya tidak syg kamu . tpi pernah kmu pkir diri kmu da satu kali btul2 syg saya ? ada btul2 faham masalah saya ? tidak pernah :'(

at the last time , can you trust me ? even just one time . please :'( don't make me cry again can ? :'(

Perkataan mu :)

Hye Hye my friends .. :)
Long time didn't updated my blog ... 1st1st is because I want Excel .. and also because I nothing happen wanna write it .. HAHA Okey2 wanna start my story :)
P/s : mau ckp melayu story nhe . da org x paam nanti haha :D

Pada satu hari , da seorng bdak mata sepet . muka cina2 cri saya .. hehehe ... pertama saya jumpa dia .. saya teda perasan apa2 ... yg satu toh .. dia sgt senyum ma saya :) saya pun balas lah . bab saya org yg KUAT senyum :D hahaaha .. dia pun teda kata2 apa2 dgn saya ... just smile :)
dari time tu .. saya igat senyumannya smpai skrng :D

trusnya , lepas bbrpa hari .. itu org mulai cri ak dlm muka buku :) serupanya saya p komen2 statusnya dlu .. baru kita mula2 b'chatting :) dlm cita kita ... mcm besa ... crita dri timur smpai selatan . HAHA .. lama2 kita b'chat .. dia mulai tnya saya .. da bf x ? hahaa ... semua org pun tau saya nhe knak tinggal oleh XXX :'( bha . pass pass pass .. truskan :D

jdi saya pun ckp sama dia saya single oke :D hahaha hmmmmm ... trus korg tau apa dia tnya x ? haha agak2 pun tau la apa dia tnya trusnya hehehehe ...oke2 .. trus2 .. kamu tau kha ?? nhe bdak sepetkan .. mulutnya .. aduii bole kc cair hati org owh .. HAHA .. hati saya la . kc cair uda ma .. haha nananana terbang dia nanti hihik :D

Dia mintak isi borang . I terima la borangnya :) hehe .. kwan2 ku pun kata dia bgus oleh XXX .. hmmm hrp2 bgitu la . saya percaya dia :) kecuali da satu adik kesygku x setujuh . hmmm ... dia bole suka saya bkan saya d paksa dia jua . cinta nhe sapa pun x boleh tahan .. saya hnya bole kata sorry sama awak . SAYA SAYANG DIA . x sanggup saya kc main dia . x patut jua :) hihik

Dia nhe .. saya suka sennyum nya . suara nya . dan Hati nya :D yah . sekali2 saya kenak men oleh lelaki .. sekali2 saya ngis ! saya pernah janji x ngis . tpi susah ! sebab , XXX btul saya sgt d sygi . tpi sgt sakiti hati org jua . hmmmmm .. bha pass pass pass ! jessie tabah hati mu ! jgn mcm ayu ! ngis2 sanaaa tau x ? HAHA

Sekarang . saya sudah kepunya .. kepunya MASRI ARIPUDDIN :) I was TAKEN :) hihik ... org yg saya syg toh dgr sini ! jgn ag test2 hati ku . jgn ag x percaya saya ... saya setia pada satu ! kau boleh tnya2 EX ku yg kau knal . tgok apa dia jwap ! dan kwan ku ! hehe .. saya pun percaya diri mu .. saya igat kata2 mu .. saya sayang kamu :) love you bie muahmuah :D ahahahahahahaaa geli2 :DDD

I'm loser D;

I'm Loser :'(

Today night , I still like that . and I dream it time with you .. That night , We go out . We go Bukit Bintang .. I remember that day is moon day , the moon is so beauty .. We stand in the MoonLight . that moment I was feel happiness :') That night , You was said manything to me .. and I remember , you told to me .. Marry me ! I think is joke ! but I know the moment you was serious . and not a sudden .. I'm so regret why I dont say . Yes I do :'(

Do you know ? I is really so love you .. Even you had another one .. I still love you .. You are my first time feel it serious ! you suggest to me your all family member .. Me too also .. But , my family don't like you .. and your aunty also dont like me .. that's was first time forced must break with you .. :'(

after , we be back friend . we still like that ..always talk phone-ing :) still joking , still playing .. but many time after you close phone ! I will cry ! I don't know why I will like that :'( and , you also know . I'm really really so hurt in heart :'(

a few day , you find back me .. and you said to me .. you never leave me ! Promise !
I trust you . I really trust all what you said to me ! Even you lie me truly , hurting me . I still trust you .. because I love you .. :')

Every night , I must crying because you . I got think I want forget you . But is so hard. Yes , I need time . but you must know ! listen here

'Even you had belonged with someone else , My heart just can belong with you .'
That all because I love you . :')

I'm Stupid girl ! I'm didn't have strong ! :'(

I'm come back , I'm so many thing to say ! but , I can't say to him . I'm just can say at here . :'(

Actually , I'm still love him ! It so Love ! but , He is not love me again .. I know I'm so stupid ! But , what cant I do .. ?

Someday , He told to me . tell me dont disturb his life again . This day , I stay at samantha home to cover song . But , Suddenly , I get it that's he told to me like that ! is suddenly ! Why ? just only feel bored already ? when I get that's msg , my heart like 'blooding' ! I'm so broken ! what the ? before I never feel like that ! I hate that feeling ! I'm so love him .. But , what why he want doing to me like that . :'( do you gonna care my feeling it ? :'(

after that day , I'm put relantionship with my bro wan2 , he just my bro ! but , what he told to me.. wishing me ? forever to him ? this is you want it ? what meaning it ? you so happy it i'm have new one ? sorry ! I can't take it ur wishing ! because he's not my bf !

How many friends tell me , dont sad dont sad ! forget him ! forget him ! forget all the memories .. But HOW I CAN DO IT ? HOW ?! TEACH ME :'( who can know , what i feeling it . no one know what I'm feeling it ! yes , I can't do anything . yes , i can't take back your heart ! I'm sorry , disturb you anymore ..

But , do you know ? I couple with you , I never sad .. I never thinking you are bad ! I'm trust you so much .. even your friends tell me you just play my feeling it . but , I never trust them . because I love you . I need trust you .. I must ! now , I don't know what can I do .. I just can cry , I want forget ! but hard ! haizz .. I'm feel so tired .. really .. really ..

Sorry That's I loved you .. :')

That's chain 'A' I'm using forever . :')