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Today , I'm really can't do anything . smile , laugh .. why it look so easy , but in my heart is so HARD . :'(

Today , I'm skype-ing with my honey Samantha :') thanks you dear so much ! because company just now and NOW . She also in sad now . Same us too .. because all about THEM :'(

my honey , don't sad . I don't know why he write like that . and I also didn't gonna say anything to you . I'm same mood with you .. heys ! we going cry same too want ?! I think you sure want :') !

Boy , I don't know what happen to you today , and I also know you are angrying me . because I can't make it promise to you . yes ! I'm really can't make it promise to who's else . because I don't trust PORMISE .

I'm so sorry about that I can't do it what you want . but I'm love you ever , please don't give up me .. because I won't give up you . I hope it you wont . first time we didn't contact anything today .. I think maybe you is so happy to play with your friends :') anyway you happy I happy .

My dear honey , I wanna talk with you .. thanks you bestie , I love you .. I know what you feeling now , but I can tell you is 'TRUST HIM' .. even you know is lie . that because you love him .. and I know you are love him damn much . Me too :') SO , Don't sad my girl .. if wanna sad . same2 cry ! same2 sad ! because we are sistar ! yes , I'm in cry now , but hope you don't too .. and I love you . I care you .. don't sad .. :')

I'm not a perfect girlfriend :'(

Dear , I'm so sorry about I can't go to meet you today .. I know why you want i go there .. but i don't want to meet him again ! and , I also can't go there .. :'(

Dear , Sorry . I'm not a perfect girlfriend . because I can't do it what you want me to do . I know what you feeling . I know ! but I'm sorry , SORRY . I really not a perfect girlfriend . but I love you :'(

I can't promise you anything . Because I don't trust Promise . and I can't promise you because I can't do it ! but I love you :'(

Today , I'm going my friends house just now , even I feel a bad mood but I still smile with them , because I don't want them worry me . But just now .. I can't say I really drink so many .. now my body still got bauk beer .. >< huhu

sangat2 rasa pening skrng . yeah , memang aku suda mabuk . biar pening tpi maci boleh type blog . huhu . ku rasa btul2 saya bukan girlfriend yang perfect untuk kamu . saya tahu kamu sangat kecewa . saya tahu pun awak merajuk . tpi boleh saya kata sama awak . saya tidak pndai pujuk lelaki :'( dan saya boleh kata sama awak . saya tidak akan terima dia balik . ya saya syg dia sgt2 ! tpi tuh dulu . dan juga saya tidak mahu dgr apa2 kisahnya . dan tidak mahu dgr namanya lagi . saya mintak maaf sangat2 kepada awak . saya tidak mahu cari gaduh sama awak . saya tidak suka bergaduh2 . saya tahu byk masalah kita . tpi saya tetap syg awak . awak tau ka ? saya tidak pernah betul2 ketawa dalam hati . saya tidak pernah rasa seronok dlm hati . tpi saya dpt awak . saya btul senyum dlm hati . sebab awak slalu paam hati saya . tahu saya ada masalah . tpi gra2 tidak boleh jumpa . ku pun kecewa juga . saya bad mood satu hari ! smpai skrng ! saya minum byk2 ! say mabuk ! tpi maci ag saya pkir tentang awak ! saya tau saya tidak perfect untuk awak . sorry sangat2 .. kalau awak tidak tahan sikap saya . boleh awak lepaskan saya . saya tidak paksa awak mesti terima kesan saya smua . tpi saya trima smua kesan2 awak . bab saya syg awak . biarpun awak tidak boleh tahan lagi . tpi saya tetap syg awak .

nhe bukti saya mabuk ! :'( saya btul2 udah tekanan sgt . haish ! bodh kan saya ? :'(


nhe antara satu saya minum ..

kedua ku minum .. tpi x mabuk .. lepas2 ku minum greds . hbis perut ku byk air . tpi maci x bole hilang stress :'(

Rasa Sangat Kecewa .. :'(

hello2 smua .. Hari nhe hari deepavali . selamat deepavali .. :) jessie hari nhe rasa sgt kecawa kpd dua org saya yg sgt syg :'(

first org ialah c 'Tinggi' dia yg lelaki saya sgt syg dlu .. dlu saya igat sya akan selamanya sama dia .. tpi kebyk masa berlalu .. dia uda berubah .. dia suka bermain sama pempuan lain . saya tahan , dia tidak layan saya bbrapa mlm smpai kata break . saya tahan , sekali2 dia kata break saya trima . skali2 dia kata sorry saya trima . smua bab saya syg dia :'( tpi , apa saya dpt ? balasan ku ialah dia curang . dia kc tinggalkan saya sndri . itu patut saya dpt oleh dia ? saya x tau patut ka tidak . saya pernah jumpa tuh pempuan . okey sgt santik . santik dri saya .. hari nhe , kedapatan dia kc bruk saya seorg suka tinggalkan dia dlu .. ckp saya yg slalu kc sakit ati nya . ckp saya org yg jahat . :'( semua yg knal saya tu pun tau . sapa slalu kc sakit ati sapa dluan ? bole tnya kwan ku c samantha dgn elyssa . drg dua2 pun besties ku . selama2 say cpl dgn c tinggi . kisah smua drg tau . saya pun teda mau cerita balik pasal dia . stop here :'(

Kedua org ialah c 'sepet' dia yg lelaki saya syg skrng . dia slalu x percaya saya . dia guna hp lain test saya . smpai dia pkir saya pgi mrah exnya . saya ckp teda saya kcau exnya .. tidak percaya . tidak puas ati . saya bgi fb ku bru dia puas ati . percaya saya . ! kenapa saya sgt tidak boleh d percaya kha ? ada ku selalu menipukan hati org ? selalu main kan hati org ? kenapa muka ku mcm penipu kha ? saya langsung tidak paham . kalau syg seorg . mesti percaya diri nya kan ? saya percaya apa kau kata . saya igat kata2 kamu . saya teda bwat benda2 yg awak x suka . smpai skrng saya tidak pernah lyan sesiapa lelaki yg mau perkenalan dgn saya . tpi awak x percaya . kenapa ? saya tidak patut d percayai ? haha mungkin muka saya mcm penipu . :'(

kamu pernah hargai diri ku ? kamu pndai sajak kata saya tidak selalu kc tinggalkan kamu . selalu mrajuk . ada btul satu kali saya btul2 mrajuk d dpan kamu x ? ada kha ? pkir dlu . kamu pkir btul2 . pernah kamu mintak apa2 yg saya tidak bagi ? pernah saya mrajuk kamu smpai kata break ? sekali2 .. sapa yg kata break dluan . sapa yg kc sakit sapa dluan . kamu pernah pkir apa aku pkir skrng ? kamu pernah x ? kamu pernah jaga hati saya ? pernah pkir masalah ku ? DEMI ? skali2 saya percaya skali2 saya sakit ati . tpi say ttp percaya . knpa ? bab saya syg kamu . tidak pernah saya mintak apa2 dri kamu . kamu bole ada satu kali btul2 pkir apa yg saya mahu ? boleh kah kamu percaya dri ku ? boleh kha kamu hargai diri ku ? saya tidak paksa .. saya sgt penat kamu tau ? skrng saya jalan pun susah . kaki tulang ku terbuka . tpi terpaksa mau pergi skola bab mau EXCEL . tpi kamu pkir saya penipu . kamu pkir saya tidak mau jumpa kamu . saya tidak syg kamu . tpi pernah kmu pkir diri kmu da satu kali btul2 syg saya ? ada btul2 faham masalah saya ? tidak pernah :'(

at the last time , can you trust me ? even just one time . please :'( don't make me cry again can ? :'(

Perkataan mu :)

Hye Hye my friends .. :)
Long time didn't updated my blog ... 1st1st is because I want Excel .. and also because I nothing happen wanna write it .. HAHA Okey2 wanna start my story :)
P/s : mau ckp melayu story nhe . da org x paam nanti haha :D

Pada satu hari , da seorng bdak mata sepet . muka cina2 cri saya .. hehehe ... pertama saya jumpa dia .. saya teda perasan apa2 ... yg satu toh .. dia sgt senyum ma saya :) saya pun balas lah . bab saya org yg KUAT senyum :D hahaaha .. dia pun teda kata2 apa2 dgn saya ... just smile :)
dari time tu .. saya igat senyumannya smpai skrng :D

trusnya , lepas bbrpa hari .. itu org mulai cri ak dlm muka buku :) serupanya saya p komen2 statusnya dlu .. baru kita mula2 b'chatting :) dlm cita kita ... mcm besa ... crita dri timur smpai selatan . HAHA .. lama2 kita b'chat .. dia mulai tnya saya .. da bf x ? hahaa ... semua org pun tau saya nhe knak tinggal oleh XXX :'( bha . pass pass pass .. truskan :D

jdi saya pun ckp sama dia saya single oke :D hahaha hmmmmm ... trus korg tau apa dia tnya x ? haha agak2 pun tau la apa dia tnya trusnya hehehehe ...oke2 .. trus2 .. kamu tau kha ?? nhe bdak sepetkan .. mulutnya .. aduii bole kc cair hati org owh .. HAHA .. hati saya la . kc cair uda ma .. haha nananana terbang dia nanti hihik :D

Dia mintak isi borang . I terima la borangnya :) hehe .. kwan2 ku pun kata dia bgus oleh XXX .. hmmm hrp2 bgitu la . saya percaya dia :) kecuali da satu adik kesygku x setujuh . hmmm ... dia bole suka saya bkan saya d paksa dia jua . cinta nhe sapa pun x boleh tahan .. saya hnya bole kata sorry sama awak . SAYA SAYANG DIA . x sanggup saya kc main dia . x patut jua :) hihik

Dia nhe .. saya suka sennyum nya . suara nya . dan Hati nya :D yah . sekali2 saya kenak men oleh lelaki .. sekali2 saya ngis ! saya pernah janji x ngis . tpi susah ! sebab , XXX btul saya sgt d sygi . tpi sgt sakiti hati org jua . hmmmmm .. bha pass pass pass ! jessie tabah hati mu ! jgn mcm ayu ! ngis2 sanaaa tau x ? HAHA

Sekarang . saya sudah kepunya .. kepunya MASRI ARIPUDDIN :) I was TAKEN :) hihik ... org yg saya syg toh dgr sini ! jgn ag test2 hati ku . jgn ag x percaya saya ... saya setia pada satu ! kau boleh tnya2 EX ku yg kau knal . tgok apa dia jwap ! dan kwan ku ! hehe .. saya pun percaya diri mu .. saya igat kata2 mu .. saya sayang kamu :) love you bie muahmuah :D ahahahahahahaaa geli2 :DDD

I'm loser D;

I'm Loser :'(

Today night , I still like that . and I dream it time with you .. That night , We go out . We go Bukit Bintang .. I remember that day is moon day , the moon is so beauty .. We stand in the MoonLight . that moment I was feel happiness :') That night , You was said manything to me .. and I remember , you told to me .. Marry me ! I think is joke ! but I know the moment you was serious . and not a sudden .. I'm so regret why I dont say . Yes I do :'(

Do you know ? I is really so love you .. Even you had another one .. I still love you .. You are my first time feel it serious ! you suggest to me your all family member .. Me too also .. But , my family don't like you .. and your aunty also dont like me .. that's was first time forced must break with you .. :'(

after , we be back friend . we still like that ..always talk phone-ing :) still joking , still playing .. but many time after you close phone ! I will cry ! I don't know why I will like that :'( and , you also know . I'm really really so hurt in heart :'(

a few day , you find back me .. and you said to me .. you never leave me ! Promise !
I trust you . I really trust all what you said to me ! Even you lie me truly , hurting me . I still trust you .. because I love you .. :')

Every night , I must crying because you . I got think I want forget you . But is so hard. Yes , I need time . but you must know ! listen here

'Even you had belonged with someone else , My heart just can belong with you .'
That all because I love you . :')

I'm Stupid girl ! I'm didn't have strong ! :'(

I'm come back , I'm so many thing to say ! but , I can't say to him . I'm just can say at here . :'(

Actually , I'm still love him ! It so Love ! but , He is not love me again .. I know I'm so stupid ! But , what cant I do .. ?

Someday , He told to me . tell me dont disturb his life again . This day , I stay at samantha home to cover song . But , Suddenly , I get it that's he told to me like that ! is suddenly ! Why ? just only feel bored already ? when I get that's msg , my heart like 'blooding' ! I'm so broken ! what the ? before I never feel like that ! I hate that feeling ! I'm so love him .. But , what why he want doing to me like that . :'( do you gonna care my feeling it ? :'(

after that day , I'm put relantionship with my bro wan2 , he just my bro ! but , what he told to me.. wishing me ? forever to him ? this is you want it ? what meaning it ? you so happy it i'm have new one ? sorry ! I can't take it ur wishing ! because he's not my bf !

How many friends tell me , dont sad dont sad ! forget him ! forget him ! forget all the memories .. But HOW I CAN DO IT ? HOW ?! TEACH ME :'( who can know , what i feeling it . no one know what I'm feeling it ! yes , I can't do anything . yes , i can't take back your heart ! I'm sorry , disturb you anymore ..

But , do you know ? I couple with you , I never sad .. I never thinking you are bad ! I'm trust you so much .. even your friends tell me you just play my feeling it . but , I never trust them . because I love you . I need trust you .. I must ! now , I don't know what can I do .. I just can cry , I want forget ! but hard ! haizz .. I'm feel so tired .. really .. really ..

Sorry That's I loved you .. :')

That's chain 'A' I'm using forever . :')